Sunday, March 26, 2006 smile>smile and the whole world smiles with you....
beginning. # posted by marie |
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in between>what's with you? what were you thinking?
you think, that meant something to me?
you were scared that i might get blown away if you say lines that "were you before"?
think again. i know i'm just a friend. i ain't stupid. i got feelings though. # posted by marie |
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Saturday, March 25, 2006 >ang init ng panahon lalo tuloy umiinit ulo ko. si mitch ay isang simpleng babae na alam kung ano ang gusto nya at alam ang ayaw nya. hindi sya ang tipo ng babae na pwede mong diktahan kung ano ang dapat nyang isipin, gawin at paniwalaan. may sarili syang paninindigan, di nya gusto na may nakikialam sa buhay nya. gayon din naman sya sa ibang tao, wala syang pakialam sa buhay mo at wala syang sasabihin sayo ng hindi mo hinihingi ang kanyang opinyon. sa madaling salita, may sarili syang buhay at walang makakagulo dito.
palabas sya ng pinto ng isang gusali ng merong isang lalaki na walang modong isinarang bigla ang pintong kanyang nilalabasan. natural, nasaktan si mitch. napasigaw pa nga sya ng, "ang sakit naman nun!" at ang walang kwentang lalaking yun ay tumawa pa. ni hindi man lang humingi ng pasensya. nagalit si mitch dahil sya ay nasaktan na eh pinagtawanan pa. nang sumbatan nya ang lalaki, "tama ba na tawanan pako?!", muling tumawa ang lecheng lalaking iyon. lalong uminit ang ulo ni mitch. "ah, sira pala ulo mo ano!" akma syang papatulan ng lalaki, gusto pa yata syang sipain nito. tila wala talaga sa sarili ang hayop na lalaking iyon. nag-init ng todo ang ulo ni mitch. hinarap ang lalaki. "aba, gago ka naman pala talaga ano?! gusto mo pa akong patamaan! wala ka talagang utak!" hindi gumalawa ang lalaki, hindi nya matuloy ang pagpadyak na balak nyang gawin kay mitch. humirit pa uli ang babae. "eh bobo ka pala eh, unang tingin palang sa yo, bobo na ang hitsura mo!! pare-pareho kayong mga lalaki! lahat kayo, BOBO!!!"
hindi na nakaimik ang lalaking iyon. hindi na rin sya gumalaw. wala syang nagawa. tinamaan yata sa lahat ng salitang narinig nya mula sa babae. siguro ngayon lang sya napagsabihan ng ganoon. ngayon lang nya nalaman ang kabobohan ng mga lalaking tulad nya na walang alam gawin kundi ang saktan ang damdamin ng mga babae. marahil ay di nya matatanggap ang mga narinig nya pero mapag-iisip sya ng mga salitang ngayon lang nya narinig na diretsahang sinabi sa kanya.
iniwan na sya ni mitch. gumaan ang kanyang pakiramdam. malamang ang mga GAGO, BOBO, AT MGA WALANG UTAK na salitang binitiwan nya sa lalaking iyon ay matagal na nyang kinikimkim sa loob nya. marahil ay may gagong lalaki na minsan nang nanakit sa kanyang damdamin. at dahil sya ay isang tao na alam kung ano ang kanyang gusto at may sarili syang buhay. hindi sya papayag na tapakan sya ng paulit-ulit. ang minsan ay maari pa. pero wala ng pangalawa doon. hindi sya papatalo sa alam nyang tama.
maaring ang walang kwentang lalaking nagsara ng pintong iyon sa kanya at ang balak na sya ay tadyakan ay naging instrumento na mailabas nya ang galit sa mga lalaking walang hiyang nanaankit ng mga babae. mga lalaking walang inisip kundi ang sarili. mga taong balang-araw ay mararanasan ang tinatawag nilang karma.
huwag kang matakot kung ika'y matino.
ito ay para sa mga kaibigan kong babae na minsan na, dalawa o tatlong beses ng sinaktan ng mga bobong lalaking walang alam gawin kundi paasahin ka sa wala. mga lalaking masusubukan din ang karma.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 no idea>a little bit affected. a little bit of everything.
not in the mood for anything. when i read that thing, i was like. ahhhhhhh... big sigh.
not in any position to react. to feel betrayed. to even feel sad. like i said do you even know that there is a Marie around?
no face. no glance. no look. no shadow. no smile. yet.
and now. hello to an end?
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oh yeah. finally defense is over. a 1.75 is good. a 2.5? duh!
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are you home? # posted by marie |
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Sunday, March 19, 2006 kababawan>alam ko wala naman talaga epekto sa kanino man ito. alam ba nya na may Marie sa paligid nya na natutuwa tuwing lumilitaw ang linyang iyon. mababaw alam ko, pero hindi naman mapigilan eh. ako naman ang apektado, hindi naman ikaw. kaya wala kang dapat sabihin o isipin man lang. alam ko nga eh, ibig sabihin, kaya ko ito. kaya kong intindihin, ayusin, tapusin, at buhayin. alam ko. pero hindi mo alam.
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006 so much to blab about, so little time..crap!>i have so many things in my head right now, i'd like to share so much, many stories about my second weekend in baguio with my kid. the accident! realizations. another one of my give-me-an-answer-to-my-dream drama. lotsa, lotsa.. yet, i 've got no time. feasib! lech! eating all my time.. for now, enjoy looking at coi muna. familiar?
Monday, March 13, 2006 >pauwi galing baguio.
thank God, we're safe.
gagong bwiset na driver na yun! hayop talaga sya kung meron nangyaring masama samin sa aksidenteng yun. buti na lang at wala. kasama ko pa anak ko, jusko! malayo pa mararating ni coi ko, leche! mabait pa rin talaga si Lord at safe kami. yung sasakyan lang ang kawawa. kung may sasakyan lang na paparating sa kabilang lane, naku lintik ka! kung di lang loose sand at bato-bato sinadsad ng sasakyan namin malamang umabot kami sa mga kawayn na yun at natusok pa kami. malamang tinamaan namin yung pader, puno at poste dun. ay gago ka talaga! leche!
sorry Lord. pero kasi naman. pero salamat pa din po. salamat.
pero gago pa rin yun. kasama ko anak ko at ina ko. lintik ka!
Thursday, March 09, 2006 busy/feasib/concert worry/baguio mode again>busy week.
why do i even think of impossible things? why do they even cross my mind?
when all there is to it is vague, senseless and hopeless answers. not even reality.
i just want to close my eyes. sleep over these things.
for a while, i want to stop thinking. stop dreaming. stop hoping. stop believing.
for a while, i want to stop being me.
i'd like to think of what other people have in their minds right now. i'd like to know what's running on Eric's mind. on Judy's mind. on that simple guy's mind while drinking his coffee. on the girl who just had her heart-broken.
i want to know what's out there. what's in it for me.
end.
feasib mode. --sobrang stressed na ako. breathe in, breathe out.
Hale, Sponge Cola and Sugarfree in HAU.(Angeles City) March27. relax, unwind, gigging, and travel. excited.
tomorrow. hello Baguio again. another weekend in Baguio. # posted by marie |
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006 baguio weekend>march 3-5 ,06 entry
medyo matagal-tagal din ako nawala. bakasyon mode kasi. march 03. i had to wake up earlier than usual because a lot of things had to be ready before going up to baguio....the trip wasn't a bore for me, i guess even for my cousins who were with us. my coi kept singing the whole time. he sang along the songs over the radio. all opm. he even sang along ultraelectro magnetic jam.: )
ooops..tinamad.
**sinipag uli.
8pm. we reached baguio and went straight to brentwood. the house was nice. after dinner, without even changing our clothes, we headed to session road. shawarma stand ni jay! ang bigat! daming customers. jampacked ng tao ang session road. lots of shops, restos, and kung ano-anong anik-anik ang meron. tao everywhere! panagbenga kasi. sobrang lucky night ni coi because there was free bamboo concert. daming tao. baka magka-stampede. we made our way through the crowd kasi all of a sudden bad mood my coi. di sya satisfied na marinig lang daw si bamboo, he wanted to see him. biglang wala sya sa mood mag camwhoring kaya ayun pinagbigyan na. ano ba term dun?pinasan sya sa balikat ng bro ko.
doesn't he look so happy seeing bamboo? naku, sobrang good mood sya after seeing and hearing hallelujah live! humataw sya sa may shawarma stand. i was so happy for him. this weekend is really for him. reward for being top1! what a way to celebrate! he saw his fave, bamboo. pack-up na sa stand after. was home at 12:30am. got coi to sleep at 1 ish. tapos had a drink with ate ghie kasi the boys had their own thing sa garage. slept at 3 ish. sarap matulog. took a shot of coi before i slept beside him.
so quiet when asleep. i love him. kisses... one moment. one nescafe. pause muna. and then. the following day, while everyone in the house were so busy cooking breakfast and getting ready for a new day. me, coi, kit, kuya ad and ate ghie were busy also..hehe, still sleeping. sarap kaya matulog ano!
coi-pinipilit kumain. bagong gising kasi. malayo ang tingin. pero may hiya pa naman kami we woke up naman before lunch time, yun lang. kit, coi and i had to prepare to go out after lunch to buy all the pasalubong that were on our list. we had to do the panic buying for us to be able to enjoy the rest of the day and not thinking of all those stuff. and so we did. anyway, coi was enjoying every single activity we were doing even the palengke thing and the jeepney rides. we walked around Burnham park because there were stalls there. i bought loots of bracelets, bonnets, purses etc. etc. etc. tapos palengke nga. walked all the way up to session road. hayy..grabe ang pagod. sa pagod coi and i decided to go home muna sa brentwood. on the way home, kasi nakasakay kami kay jay. i saw a very familiar face but not a very familiar car. it was him! we were both in baguio on the same exact weekend?! but was i affected? no! not at all. nagulat lang ako./ yun lang. the only reaction i had. and i was happy about that. end. pahinga kami for like 30mins sa bahay then off to sm daw eh. ibigay ang gusto ng unico hijo. total mom-kid bonding. we walked around and ended sa national bookstore. coi just loves books so much. he'd stop at any book shop he'd see while walking. he bought new books and new art pens. ang kanyang kapritso sa buhay--libro at art materials. pag-uwi. rest ng konti. sobrang busy ang bahay. everybody kept on moving. after dinner. the kids played for a while. kuya ton and tina came with bianca and erin kasi. kaya coi had playmates na. then sleep na kids. beer sessions muna kami. past 3am na ata kami natapos. ang ingay ng village. napa-ingay namin. cousin bonding. too bad wala si det eh. namiss ko sya sa baguio.
tina, ate ghie, me and ate ting
kuya lhem, parang gago.hehe
Friday, March 03, 2006 top1>mommy mode
i went to fyas today to fetch coi and tell his teacher that he's gonna be absent tomorrow because we're going to baguio. bakasyon mode muna.
i was so suprised to hear that my coi's in the top 10 list, and mind you top1 sya dude! top1! top1!! ang saya.. i got teary-eyed pa nga. call me emotional or what but i was really sooo happy and proud of course!! o san ka pa?!
baguio here we come... relax lang muna...
i'm missing someone.. hindi na nga ata yung look-alike eh, yung totoo na.. ang labo ko dude! malabo yun! lech!
Mapapansin kaya Sa dami ng 'yong ginagawa Kung kaagaw ko ang lahat May pag asa bang makilala ka...
Awit na nananawagan Baka sakaling napakikinggan Pag ibig na palaisipan Sa kanta na lang idaraan
wala eh..
pero yun lang yun ha. ayaw ko ng komplikado, pag andyan na urong na uli ako. # posted by marie |
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Thursday, March 02, 2006 >march01 entry
around 11am, coi and i checked on egg(coi's orange chick). we both were so devastated to see him dead. we buried egg at the backyard. we had to live egg right away, there were no goodbye rites muna. today was coi's last set of exams for prelims. so he had to prepare for school.
but when he got home, he went straight to our backyard to check on egg's grave. he asked me to find him a piece of wood where he can put egg's name and place it over his grave. and so i did. he was sad.
i was sad for him too. egg was his first pet.
tragic for coi. # posted by marie |
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~ Me ~
Name:marie
Location:Tarlac city, Philippines.. i am nice and bitchy..don't argue.. i'm friendly and suplada.. i love life and everything else related to it.. i'm stubborn but responsible.. i love coi sooooo much.. i'm a single-schooling mom!..and i'm proud of that!
~ Loves ~
my coi my family friends music!opm bands! hale, sponge cola, join the club, juana, 6cm, pupil, protein shake, urbandub, dicta license, stonefree, wickermoss, sandwich YG's life and everything else related to it colors coi's artworks and hirits! coi's own versions of band songs my pillow at night apple pies bags butterflies blogs cookies concerts dreams emails flowery stuff gigs girlbonding with san mig then coffee greens happiness hugs internet kisses love music movies new friends orange pinks perfumes purples rains in Baguio slippers sunflowers tv the OC videoke whites
~ Hates ~
airheads brats backstabbers bestfriend with benefits childish guys conceited jerks disturbed freaks dirt dramatics dfd's fuckinshit fools great pretenders hypocrites ill fated men muscle men one-way talks plastics rumors roaches users
~ Wishlist ~
wish you were here
my own house
my own yacht
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