as i'm writing this, he maybe up on the plane already.
nakahiga pa ko when he texted me saying paalis na sya.oh what a friendly message!i was hoping for a more personalized one.heh!but still i was glad na nagpaalam sya.kahit nakapikit pa ata ako i was so excited to text back.sabi ko nga too bad, di na kami nag-usap uli after our long talk nung minsan*.i got up from bed and now eto i'm making this.i thought of putting all my emotions here para ma-release ko. i'm feeling so bad.naiiyak na naman ako.my friends know that i find it so hard to cry over things na dapat iyakan na.dami ng ganong situations eh.but this time, bakit naiiyak ako?!pero ayus lang, alam ko na naman na i couldn't do anything about this.dito na to' mag-stop.it ends here na.: ( he said :"huwag na lungkot, smile na.: )", reply ko:"not that easy, pero dahil sabi mo sige" but up to now, i'm sad parin.i know i have no right.pero emotions ko lang to'.and i think i'm entitled to that.
siguro nakalipad na sya.now excited na sya to see her.and i'm happy for him.but not happy for myself.pero i know magiging okay din ako.i will.and i should.
walang galit.walang tampo.friends tayo eh.
so pano, later uli.rest muna ko.
i'm back, and medyo feeling a little better. i've realized na wala na din akong magagwa eh. and i have to go back to my old life again. aliwin ko lang uli sarili ko with my music. anjan ang Hale & sponge cola. anjan naman si champ & yael.
ano na nga ba yung kwento ko? where was i na nga ba?
basta all i know was i had the best time. bitin pero and saya. naging sad lang when it was time na ihatid na nya kami pauwi. yun lang yung time na tumahimik kami. as in. pagdating dito sa bahay, i was looking forward na makababa ng car to hug him for the last time. it was so painful. really painful.
nakausap ko pa sya ng 2am til 3:30 ata.saya nun.sana laging pwede.sana when i need someone to talk to pwede sya.naiiyak ako.pero happy ako for him that he found his happiness na.naiiyak ako kasi sana ako yun.sana masaya din ako like him.
pahinga muna uli.
hi prudy.wish i could talk to you too.
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