last night was by far the saddest/happiest moment i had with my girlfriends after a long time.
i was talking to cha, beng, det and pruds this afternoon over the phone. with cha and beng, as to what time namin bubulabugin si prudy. hapon daw sabi nila. si det din. when i was talking to pruds at 3pm, we still weren't thinking that she was leaving for manila this evening then off to new jersey at 6am the following day. although she was telling me of the things she packed and how she practiced bringing her luggage/s.haha.. sabi ko nga i'm sure mas mabigat pa sa kanya mga yun.:) boy, loveu friend.
before 6pm, i was at there doorstep thinking that my other girlfriends would be there already, i went inside their house, straight to her bedroom(which i will miss seeing..) with tito&tita on her door, they moved and gave way for me(hehe..)when pruds saw me she just started crying..i went to her but i wasn't crying..dunno what's gotten into me, this always happens to me, when we're suppose to cry over things, i just can't. i want to but no tears would even fall down my chubby cheeks:)i dunno if she cried because she saw me..kakaiyak bako?..all i know maybe she's starting to feel the sadness & loneliness, tension, fear & lost..maybe mixed emotions..i'm not sure. "wala akong kwenta!", i was telling myself kasi eto matalik kong kaibigan umiiyak and all i could do is just give her a hug. sad ako..now ako naiiyak as i'm writing this..solo flight!
*our other girlfriends came and yun medyo nag-lighten na kasi we were all making fun of pruds na..lagi naman ganun eh, trying to forget the sadness, i guess. we had our last photos and cheeses sa room nya. not to forget the stiffneck..hehe,
*had our last dinner(supper..hehe) din for this year, after 2, 3, 0r 4 years uli sana. yummy po tita + pansit malabon too.
bumibilis ang oras..tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan nako ng panahon.malapit na oras ng pagalis ni ling-ling. ramdam ko na tensyon sa bahay nila.tensyon na pilit dine-deny.pilit binabalewala.we had our last moments sa room nya.sad nako pero tuloy parin.
when we all went outside her room, ayun na sya starting to cry again. det and cha were crying too..ako?wala pa rin..until the time we said our goodbyes, kakalungkot talaga.then ayusn pasok na sya sa car.then off they went..sigh*, kami nila cha and det, ayun stogies na nalulungkot.. ganun talaga eh...sigh again*
pag-uwi ko, review ko ng onti si champ since late na kasi buti nalang ni-review na sya ni mama while i was there kina pruds.naiintindihan naman nila e.nung nasa room kami ni champ, i was telling him na umalis na si tita prudy, i found my voice breaking..naiiyak nako.there i was, delayed reaction.pero pinigil ko. til i got a text from pruds saying nasa makati na sila & thanking me for everything & advance greeting nya kay champ.ayun, naiyak nako.we exchanged texts, and i was really crying while pinipiga my pimple..hehe, mega cry nako..kahit pilit i-lighten ni pruds msgs nya, iyak pa rin ako.sad & lonely feeling, kasi mami-miss ko talaga sya.iba si pruds, she's a dear friend to me talaga.she knows that.:)love ko sya. utp to 2am katext ko pa sya.until d na nya ako sinagot.nakatulog na pala ako kakaiyak.when i woke up may text ako from beb, saying lumipad airplane ni pruds at exactly 7:32am.(sad*) ayun, pagtayo ko sa bed, katext ko na si beb & beng, lahat about prudy..don't worry beb welcome ka pa rin samin,wink*! mahal ka nya.
plastic goodbye kasi, ako ang plastic..can't cry along with them pero deep inside..
as i'm writing this katext ko si beng, sabi nya kakmiss wala na daw nangungulit sa kanya, di sya sanay, wala na daw mga paranoid texts..hehe, peace prudy! sabi ko nga iba talaga, iba pag may kulang..:(
but we'll see you again someday. and there'll be more stories to share, more laughs to ignite our bones..hehe..more songs to sing.for now, harapin na muna ang buhay, ang hinaharap.:)
sana when that time comes, makasabay pa rin ako sa iyo, sa inyo.(ibang kwento naman yun)
yun na.pahinga na uli.
*photos soon
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